Mungkin kadang kadang apa yang kita minta, berat untuk orang penuhi.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA

All I ever wanted now is to start fresh. For things between us to get better. We're just okay now but I want something, more. How I wish I didn't start yelled to you or speak bad language. I know I didn't treat you fairly like I treat my friends. Insyaallah you will be my husband, I want us to have healthy Islamic lifestyle that will grant us each other in Jannah.

I've been thinking of changing my living way as in the way I dress, the way I behave and the way I talk. These huge things all begin with one small step.

Because now it will take quite a time to change it. You know, like kita dah terbiasa makan Doublecheese burger then suddenly tukar low carb burger. Sihat, tapi taksedap. Tapi sebab nak live longer maka kita amalkan makan low carb burger tu.

Deep down, what I really want is to change myself to become a better muslimah. Covering my aurah properly. Behave in beautiful manners. Talk properly to people. Jaga hati orang. I really want that. But, its not a one day job. True what people say, just change. Tetapi tahukah anda untuk berubah juga memerlukan belanja? Bab behave dan bercakap tu memang takpakai modal but to change the entire wardrobe to a decent muslimah's attire, that's that.

Sembang lebat.

Truth is aku ni banyak beralasan. Kalau dah memang hati kuat nak berubah Allah memang dah tunjuk jalan. Cuma takpernah nak ikut. Hari hari bukak Insta Dena tengok dia dressing lahai cantiknyaaaa sejuk mata memandang. Lalu memandang rupa diri yang masih jahil.

Tuhan, tolong panjangkan nyawa aku supaya dapat berbakti untuk mak ayah dan adik adik. Dan semoga aku dapat jadi isteri yang solehah. Amin.