BEFORE AND AFTER

Few days left before Muslims are going to celebrate Eid-ul-Fitr. I'm nowhere near of feeling excited for raya this year. Rasa macam dah lama mati and then hidup semula tahun ni untuk sambut my very first raya, which not so much fun. Dah tak ada semangat nak kumpul duit raya and try baju baju baru. When I was a little kid, me Ariff and Aja would try all our new outfits and bergaya ala ala model kat hall. Bajet awesome gila dapat semua brand new sebab memang susah pon nak dapat semua tu. Itu zaman you-have-to-work-hard-for-everything-you-ever-want.

So kepada Kakak dan Baby yang lahir dalam zaman you-don't-even-have-to-work-your-ass-mak-and-ayah-would-give-you-EVERYTHING, they both totally different dengan kami.Like, totally different and kadang kadang aku rasa macam aku diserang sakit jantung dan segala penyakit orang tua sebab bercakap dengan Si Kakak atau Si Baby. Rasa jantung ni berdenyut tahap perlu rawatan serta merta. Raya ni memang korang kena mintak maaf sambil menangis teresak esak dengan aku kalau tak memang tragic lah life korang forever. Ini sirius.